ME!

AHHHHHHH

2007-07-28T02:29:00Z

So i'm don't know who to talk to, or what to do!! Matt and I are kinda fighting because I'm sooooooo sick of sex everything is sex. SEX SEX SEX!!! And I'm sick of it. Three some this butt sex that just let it go. I'm not like that. He knows this. So what the fuck is the problem??? And as a result of me not having sex with him ALL THE FUCKING TIME there's something wrong with me. I'm not being myself. God I hate that. Maybe it's because i'm PMSing!!!!! Hmm I don't know, what ever.

Anyway I miss Greg too. It's not like I don't talk to him everyday but it's not the same. I can't just go home and see him, I only get to text message him or talk to him!!! Oh well!!!

I love Matt with all my heart and soul but i'm just sick of sex!!! That's the whole reason for this oh well whatever!!!

WOW

2007-07-21T01:25:50Z

So Last week Mike and I were sitting here watching TV and he got a phone call saying Greg Kirchner was here and I was like I wanna see him!! So we hung out! It was fun!! :) We hang out like everyday all week. He had to go back Thrusday morning but we still talk and everything!!! (well more like text but whatever!!!)

But yeah that puts me in a good mood!!! :) (smiley faces everywhere!) What makes me sad is that he had to go back :( so sad!

whao!!! LOL

2007-06-26T00:14:10Z

That's my new saying!!! Just thought i'd share that with everyone!!! So i'm boring and there is nothing going on i'm just bored and waiting for matt to get off work so we can go to HB's for morgies birthday!! But yeah so that's it!!! LOL I'm boring and noone updates so i figured i had a few min that i would!!! HEHE

and that is all..........

knoppy @ 2007-05-24T22:38:00

2007-05-25T02:40:53Z

I'm so sick of caring about people who don't give a shit about me. They so oh yeah i'm sorry blah blah but they do it over and over.

I've got a question about friendship

2007-05-22T01:48:55Z

Well first I would like to say that it's a good day bc Josh and Jackie left today!!! Matts taking it hard but I'm happy~!!!! :P

So this weekend we had the relay for life for morgan. It was fun until at night they did this walk were it's silent and you remember the people who died of cancer, the one's going through it now, and the one's who have fought it. Nicole get's really emotional about those things and afterwards sat by herself for a while, which was fine. While she was sitting Emily and Cathryn went to the bathroom. When Nicole was done she came over to Matt and I and asked where Cathryn went and I said "she went to the bathroom" and then i said, Kind of jokingly but not really, "I see how it is I'm not good enough to talk to, Whatever." And she kind of gave me this look like come on don't be like that, and just said well i guess i could walk over there. and she did.

Then Nicole and Cathryn went up to starbucks and while they were gone Emily and I were walking and talking and I said to her that we could be like Nicole and Cathryn are close and stuff and she's like actually i'm kind of closer to Nicole and Cathryn then i am you. Huh way to burst my fucking esteem.

So really are they my "Best Friends" or are they just my good friends?????? This is the question....

It's like Krystal, I know i'm not the first one she calls when she comes home but I'm the first one she calls when she has a problem, and vice versa all the way. She trusts me, She's a BEST FRIEND!!!

And Its not like I want to know everything just talked to me about serious things. Ya know. Emily told me that i'm the only one she can talk about sex to. I hate sex, most of the time and I guess if she was a real best friend she would know that. I think she thinks of our group as a clique, bc thats what she called us. I don't know maybe we are but I just concidered us a group of best friends,

I really care but i don't. Bc I know I can't say anything to them bc nothing would happen. So i'm just gonna treat them like they treat me, just like a regular hang out buddy/friend. I'm not gonna call them if i need to talk or anything. And that kind of excludes Cathryn bc she tells me things like a true best friend. I guess its mainly Nicole and Emily. (who wont even get to know me.) What ever.

Any thoughts??????

knoppy @ 2007-05-09T20:48:00

2007-05-10T00:55:10Z

so i haven't updated lately bc my computer has been being stupid!! Any Mike Linington rocks my socks off!!!! BC he fixed it!!!!!!! I love that kid!!!!

Anyway not really much has been going on. so i guess there is really no reason to be updating! LOL I'm such a nerd!

My birthday is in 16 days, 4 hours and 10 min!!!!!!!! I CAN'T WAIT!!!!!!! I know its kinda boring bc it's my 22nd but it's still MY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WOOT WOOT!!!!!!!!!! PARTY!!!!!!!! HARDY!!!!!!!!!!!! So if your not doing anything on the 26th give me a call we are going out!!!!!!! Prob just to a kareoke bar but still it'll be FUN!!!!!!!!!!!! Cause i'm there!!!!! LOL I know i'm conceited but i'm allowed to be my birthday is soooooonnnnnnn!!!!!!!!!!!

hehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehe

MUAHH AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH

something to make everyone smile!!!

knoppy @ 2007-04-18T19:54:00

2007-04-18T23:57:48Z

so the funeral went as good as funerals go.

But anyway so i dyed my hair on tuesday night (well nicole and cathryn did) but yeah Its really dark for me!!! It's suppossed to be a medium golden brown but it kind of came out more dark then light but it looks really good i really like it!!! I'm really excited about it! If you have myspace i'm gonna put a pic or two of it check it out!! I haven't yet so just keep checking cause i don't know when i'll do it!!

I also was messing around with my live journal!!! Lol can you tell I'm bored!!!!

knoppy @ 2007-04-13T19:07:00

2007-04-13T23:12:17Z

so i have to go to a funeral tonight well just the veiwing. Becca's best friend Mel, her mom died last friday. And the funeral is tomorrow but the viewing is tonight.

I don't like funerals. They kinda freak me out LOL I'm always afraid that the person in the casket is still alive and they are just gonna get up and start talking. Then i make myself think they are breathing bc if you stare at their chest long enough it looks like it's moving. Damn optical illusion!!! But yeah and then walking thru a grave yard I'm always afraid the hands of people buried are gonna reach up and grab me so i only walk on the head stones i will not step on the graves HELL NO!!!

LOL God i'm a freak!!! LOL

KRYSTAL!!!!!!

2007-04-12T01:01:54Z

Krystal.......Oh Krystal........Where are you???????????? I haven't heard from you in a while!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Where did you goooooooo?????????????

Oh and YAY!!! I'm home!!! FINALLY!!!!!!!! No I had fun bein in someone elses house but i also like being home too!!!

Whoopeeee!!!

2007-04-11T01:56:56Z

So i just found out that josh and jackie are moving to OHH YEAH TEXAS!!!!!!!!!! May 22 Happy fucking birthday to me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Hopefully they freakin leave this time bc they were supposed to leave last year but didn't!!

knoppy @ 2007-04-06T13:07:00

2007-04-06T17:11:03Z

sorry i know i said i'd keep this updated but i've been house sitting for chanel and patrick (the kids i take to school in the morning!) Anyway I came home to get clothes and stuff but yeah so i will be at their house till wednesday!!!

Any way happy easter everyone!!!!!!!!

knoppy @ 2007-03-31T22:33:00

2007-04-01T02:39:28Z

wow its been a long time since i've written in here. Matt and I are still together!! yesterday was 3 years!!! We moved into a house and mike jones lives with us now. Its pretty cool! Matt and Mike get along great! They work together! Anyway that's about it!! Maybe i should start writing in this more often!!

I could write about how i HATE Matts friend Josh!! And his girlfriend Jackie!! They called me a bitch! ME!!! I'm freaking nice to everyone! WTF! Anyway that was like 2 weeks ago so i'm over it kinda but i haven't seen them since then. i fucking hate people like that! LOL

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

2006-05-11T01:34:03Z

NNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO What the fuck america??????????????????????????????????? Chris is the best singer on there!!!!!!!!! YYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY He should sooooooooo be the next idol.

Right now i'm so pissed with american idol right now that i don't even care who wins any more. WTF!!!!!!!

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

2006-05-04T03:41:46Z

so today matt and i went to some car thingy in mount clemenm (sp???) anyway to hang out with josh, jackie, tom, jason, jen and some other kid i don't know. none of them said a word to me and for some reason its my fault bc i was being a bitch. ok so first of all i didn't say a word to either of them and i didn't do anything to any of them so how is that being bitchy??? so now matt and i are fighting bc of it. U should also know that about a week ago we were at josh and jackies when i made a comment that i got teary eyed bc of things that matt and josh had said so now josh isn't talking to me anymore and somehow some reason this is all my fault??? What the fuck. so now matts not gonna let me hang out with his friends and he's not going to hang out with my friends. ya know we never had this problem until josh came into the picture, but oh wait no its all my fault cause i'm a bitch rt? WHAT THE FUCK????!!!!!!!!!

The comment was made bc everytime i say something josh has a smart ass comment to make so i just wasn't saying much and matt told me that i should go home bc i'm not having any fun and i was being a bitch and thats when i started getting teary eyed and when i told jackie she told josh who took it the wrong way so now he won't talk to me and i'm a bitch forever.

In all the years that most of u have known me how many times have i been bitchy??????

let me answer my own question not very many because very rarely am i a bitchy person, what does josh just bring out the bitchyness in me or something??? AHHHHHHHHHH is all i can say i don't know what to do i don't know what to say what the hell.

A little help here anyone...please....thank you...

knoppy @ 2006-04-29T12:51:00

2006-04-29T19:55:18Z

So i get to see clay tonight YAY!!!! I'm so exited! matt and i are going to babysit for him!!

My Aunts coimg up tomorrow from ohio (I Think) i still have to call her! but anyway so yesterday and today i was a cleaning freak! I did the laundry, dishes, vacuuming, straightening up! and matt did some of the bathroom! He was a BIG help lol!! he only did the tub, sink and walls. i had to do the mirrors, toilet and floor!!! LOL Any way i have to finish getting ready to go!!! Later

I LOVE MY MATTY:P

2006-04-24T22:14:01Z

So i came home today, opened the frig for a drink (of water weirdos!!!) and what did i find???? FLOWERS from who??? my baby Y??? just because he loves me!!!! AWWWWW I love him so much!!!!

And he also told me hes gonna take me to the mall and buy me my bathing suit!!!! YAY

AMERICAN IDOL BABY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2006-04-13T01:32:36Z

SO i'm sittin here watchin American Idol and getting teary eyed What the HELL!!!!! Anyway I think it's gonna be Ace or Paris...Hopefully Paris I'm not really a big fan of hers!!! I kinda like ace!!! I'm just happy my fav's are stayin!!! YAY Chris and Kathrine!!!! SOOOOOOOOO Lets see who wins...(damn commericials!)

Yeah so monday night i was working out and doing lunges and i think i totally hurt the tops of my thighs on both legs because for the past 2 days i havent been able to walk fast or even it good!! Imagine working with kids and not being able to walk! It SUCKS!!! But i figured out how to strech them out so they are getting better!!!

(Hang on american idols back on)

Chris is soo hott!mmmmmmmmm good

What the hell... Elliot, Ace, or Bucky??????????????? Y not Paris?????????WTF!!!!!

I think it's gonna be Ace.......We'll seeeeeee.....

out of the three i want Ace to go....YAY Simon (incase u missed it that's who he thinks is gonna go too)

here it is... NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO It's Bucky!! NOOOOOOOOO DAMN!!! I like Bucky :(
What the hell that leaves me not so happy but i will live bc my fav are still goood!!!!

Anyway till next time people:)

hmmmm

2006-04-07T23:15:12Z

So i was just sittin here and decided that i should update my live journal but...i really have nothing to say. Nuttin has changed! Crazy stuff right??? I just don't know what to say! So yeah!!! I'm gonna go now bc that was just the dumbest entry ever! Maybe next time i will have something better!!!

Ok something better I'm watching Chad and Matt playing with electrical stuff!!! Need i say more!!! LOL

not so good...

2006-01-18T23:38:58Z

Yeah so i just found out that nicoles zalewski's sister, morgan has leukemia...again. she has a 50/50 chance. Please pray for her. Shes a good kid. She's only 10. please pray for her.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

2006-01-17T02:27:47Z

yeah so i know he's strawbarys best friend but johnnySu is getting on my fucking nerves. Sorry but u don't fucking call one of my best friends a slut. Yeah he called cathryn a slut. I already feel so bad for setting them up i know all they did was hang out 2 times but she had sex with him and i'm sure he presured her into it.

That and stupid shit like he promised to put a radio in my car and it hasnt been done yet and i found out that it was going to be some stupid cheap one! FUCK THAT i will go buy my own!!! And he promised to put a lock key la century whatever thingy in my car and oh yeah hasn't yet but u have time to fuck one of my best friends and then make fun of her in front of me??? What ever u fucking asshole get out of my damn apartment! FUCKER!!!

Anyway other than that everything else is GREAT!!! Matt fixed my headlight i am no longer a padiddle!!!! WHOOT!!!!!!! and he got a grill for the front of it and he changed my battery!!! So now all he needs to change is the hood, fenders, and bumper!!! WOO WHO!!!!!!!

All Good Here Though

Boys HA

2006-01-07T04:15:02Z

god matt is being sooooooooooo dumb. he's mad at me because he thinks he does more for me than i do for him! I think we do everything equally. if i don't do more for him. and if i don't do ONE stupid thing for him then he gets mad at me! but if he doesn't do something for me oh its funny WTF!!!!!!!! I'm so pissed hes such an ass. so now we do nothing for each other. we have to do everything for ourselves. what the fuck ever. because i'm gonna have to do everything for him tomorrow. whatever. he's such an ass sometimes.

HEY HEY

2006-01-02T16:22:26Z

2006!!!!!! We had a party at our place it was a lot of fun. I guess it really wasnt a party but a few of our close friends over! (Ok well my close friends!) matts friends had another party but he didn't want to go!! Matt got drunk it was funny!!! and a lot of fun!!! I hope u all had fun!!!!!

thats all for now

Merry Christmas

2005-12-26T01:17:20Z

Hey Everyone Merry Christmas! How was Everyones? Mine was good!! Yesterday we went to my sisters and got to see everyone and got lots of presents and then today we went to Matts grandmas and his grandpas and got lots of presents too! I got the magic bullet food making thing from tv that's really SWEET its on an infomercial! have u seen it??? I've been wanting it really bad!!! and i got it YAY!! Then we went to matts moms house she got him the dukes of hazzards dvd and I got body spray the good stuff cucumber melon!!! YAY Alright well i hope u all had a good Christmas and will talk to u all later!
LUV YA

YAY

2005-12-24T19:40:28Z

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!!!

crap

2005-12-11T04:26:18Z

so wanna hear some bull shit... Tuesday matt talked to this dumb lady at the bank about the truck and told her that we'd have the money by friday to pay the truck up to date (we are behind on it) so the lady said ok. Then thursday night we were sitting there waitin for josh and jackie to come over we were goin to go out with them when matt hears something and looks outside, theres a tow truck trying to take our truck. WTF! So matt jumps into the truck and starts to back up and the fucking dumbass guy jumps under the truck to hook something up to it so matt can't get away. It was so dumb. Then the guy calls the cops on matt. I calm them both down, matt goes upstairs with josh and jackie. I was freaking out as it was but i called linda and she talked to the guy and calmed me down. So then i talked to the guy about what we need to do to get the truck back and then went upstairs. We were getting ready to leave and we downstairs and the guy was still there and now the cops were there and they called matt over, frisked him, and put him in the cop car... Now i'm freakin out man their going to take him in for something stupid. What the fuck. So i'm crying and freaking out. Josh and Jackie practically throw me into their car and we wait for the guy to be done and the cops let matt out. So needless to say they took our truck and we need 956 dollars to get it back. That sucks. THey chick who is staying with us is going to buy the truck from us so shes trying her hardest to get some of the money and whatever she gets we will put in the rest but we were like MERRY FUCKING CHRISTMAS TO US!
Anyway so now we dont know if we will have enough money for presents and for bills it sucks badly. Oh well I'm sure we will be fine but we will see!